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  • A Successful Species

    Our collective effort
    to ruin the planet
    and all its inhabitants
    is working beautifully.

    Congratulations.

    The forests are falling,
    the oceans are heating,
    the rivers are carrying plastic,
    the soil is exhausted,
    the insects are disappearing,
    and the glaciers, quite sensibly,
    are leaving.

    Progress.

    We have become very efficient.

    We can destroy in decades
    what took millions of years
    to create.

    That must count
    for something.

    We cut down forests
    and call it development.

    We poison rivers
    and call it industry.

    We empty the oceans
    and call it livelihood.

    We flatten mountains
    and call it infrastructure.

    We cover the earth in plastic
    and call it convenience.

    We buy things we do not need
    with money we do not have
    to impress people
    who do not care,

    and then throw those things away
    because something newer
    has arrived.

    Growth, they tell us.

    Always growth.

    As though a tumour
    were not also very good
    at growing.

    Let us continue
    on this glorious path
    of consumerism and waste.

    Let us manufacture desire,
    sell dissatisfaction,
    package happiness,
    deliver it overnight,
    and send yesterday’s happiness
    to a landfill by morning.

    Why repair
    when we can replace?

    Why conserve
    when we can consume?

    Why ask whether we need something
    when the more important question is:

    Can it be delivered today?

    Let our hegemony continue.

    Let us remind ourselves
    that the Earth belongs to us.

    Not the whale.

    Not the elephant.

    Not the bee.

    Not the tree.

    Certainly not the child
    who will be born fifty years from now.

    They have contributed nothing
    to the economy.

    Every forest is timber.

    Every river is water supply.

    Every animal is protein, leather,
    entertainment, inconvenience,
    or real estate waiting to happen.

    Every untouched landscape
    is clearly suffering
    from insufficient monetisation.

    And when the consequences arrive—

    the flood,
    the drought,
    the cyclone,
    the wildfire,
    the crop failure,
    the unbearable heat—

    we shall look astonished.

    Who could have imagined?

    Apart from the scientists.

    And the reports.

    And the satellites.

    And the measurements.

    And the warnings
    repeated for half a century.

    But really—

    who could have known?

    Our hearts will fill
    with sympathy
    after we have killed them
    with our apathy.

    We are very compassionate
    after the event.

    We will light candles.

    We will change our profile pictures.

    We will write:

    Thoughts and prayers.

    We will call the dead
    a tragedy.

    We will call the displaced
    unfortunate.

    We will call the vanished species
    a loss.

    And we will carefully avoid
    calling any of it
    the result of our choices.

    That would be unpleasant.

    Better to mourn.

    Mourning requires no sacrifice.

    Apathy is much easier
    when followed by sympathy.

    It makes us feel human.

    Meanwhile,
    the last forests can be photographed
    before they disappear.

    The last coral reefs
    can become documentaries.

    The last elephants
    can be watched in glorious 8K.

    The last clean water
    can be bottled
    and sold as premium.

    Perhaps the last tree
    will have its own visitor centre,
    gift shop,
    parking lot,
    and corporate sponsor.

    Children will queue
    to see it.

    Please do not touch.

    Rare natural object.

    Once common.

    And then,
    when our work is finished,
    we shall hand the planet
    to our children.

    A magnificent inheritance:

    warmer oceans,
    dead reefs,
    burning summers,
    failing aquifers,
    poisoned rivers,
    eroded soil,
    mountains of waste,
    microplastics in their blood,
    and the silence
    of everything we made extinct.

    Let them have
    what we have left them.

    Let them repair
    what we were too comfortable
    to protect.

    Let them pay
    for what we called prosperity.

    Let them ration
    what we wasted.

    Let them restore
    what we destroyed.

    Let them explain
    to their children
    what a forest was.

    And when they ask us,

    Why?

    we can show them
    our quarterly growth figures.

    Our shopping malls.

    Our SUVs.

    Our overflowing wardrobes.

    Our food thrown into bins.

    Our endless upgrades.

    Our disposable everything.

    See?

    We were successful.

    Perhaps they will ask:

    Did you know?

    Oh yes.

    We knew.

    We had climate models.

    We had photographs.

    We had satellite data.

    We had conferences.

    We had treaties.

    We had scientists explaining it
    again
    and again
    and again.

    We knew enough
    to predict the future.

    Just not enough
    to give up anything
    for it.

    And that may be
    our greatest achievement:

    we managed to love our children
    while consuming their future.

    We managed to pity the victims
    while preserving the system
    that created them.

    We managed to call ourselves
    the most intelligent species
    on Earth

    while systematically destroying
    the only Earth
    we have.

    But fear not.

    AI will save us.

    It will bring everything back.

    The forests,
    the reefs,
    the elephants,
    the rain,
    the birdsong,
    the rivers running clear.

    All of it.

    In 3D.

    In 4D.

    In 5D.

    In 4K,
    5K,
    8K,
    and whatever comes next.

    Sharper than memory.

    Brighter than life.

    More perfect
    than the imperfect world
    we destroyed.

    We will walk through virtual forests
    without mosquitoes.

    Swim through virtual oceans
    without salt.

    Touch virtual elephants
    that cannot trample us.

    Listen to extinct birds
    sing on command.

    We will recreate coral reefs
    pixel by pixel
    after bleaching the real ones white.

    We will manufacture sunsets
    after filling the real sky
    with smoke.

    We will simulate rainforests
    after cutting down the originals.

    And we will say:

    Look.

    Nothing was lost.

    We have the data.

    The reconstruction is perfect.

    The whale swims again.

    The tiger walks again.

    The forest breathes again.

    Almost real.

    Perhaps better than real.

    No smell.

    No decay.

    No danger.

    No inconvenience.

    Nature, finally improved.

    And our children,
    wearing whatever device
    we have invented for them,
    will stand beneath a digital tree
    and marvel at how green
    the world once was.

    They will hear simulated wind.

    Feel simulated rain.

    Watch simulated butterflies
    land upon simulated flowers.

    And perhaps
    they will even feel grateful.

    What extraordinary ancestors
    we must have been
    to preserve everything so beautifully
    after destroying it.

    We will have achieved
    the final triumph of civilisation:

    reality without reality.

    Experience without existence.

    Memory without
    the thing remembered.

    A planet reduced to information
    and resurrected
    as entertainment.

    And we will live inside it willingly.

    Because why struggle
    to preserve the real world
    when the virtual one
    can be upgraded?

    Why protect a forest
    when we can render one?

    Why save a species
    when we can simulate it?

    Why endure reality
    when illusion
    can be made more beautiful?

    And so, at last,
    we will arrive
    at the ultimate Maya—

    not merely the ancient idea
    that the world we perceive
    may not be what it seems,

    but something far more impressive:

    a world we know is unreal
    and choose to live in anyway,

    because the real one
    became inconvenient
    to save.

    So congratulations.

    Our collective effort
    to ruin the planet
    and all its inhabitants
    is working.

    Let us not lose momentum now.

    There is still
    so much reality left
    to replace.

  • The Windshield Note

    Daily writing prompt
    What’s the best thing you’ve ever found randomly on the street?

    I almost missed it. It was just a smudge of pink caught in the wiper blade when I got back to the car. A leaf-shaped piece of pink paper, the kind that peels off a sticker sheet, scribbled over in blue crayon by a hand still learning its letters.

    I love my life, written on it.

    I smiled. It made my day.

    The heart was pressed so hard the crayon had gone waxy and shiny in the middle, like whoever drew it wanted to make sure it would stay. The letters wandered a little. The ‘y’ leaned like it was in a hurry, the ‘f’ curled at the bottom like it wasn’t quite sure how to stop.

    I have no idea who left it. Perhaps some kid, walking home from school, hands full of nothing better to do than press love onto a stranger’s windshield. They didn’t know whose car it was. They didn’t need to. They just had something good in them that day and decided the world should have a little of it too.

    I’ve picked up plenty of things off the street over the years – a few coins, once a twenty-dollar bill that I felt guilty keeping, so gave it to someone in need. But nothing that cost less and was worth more than this. A kid, somewhere out there, loves their life. And now, a little bit, so do I.

    I peeled it off carefully and saved it. It’s still there somewhere in my box of old things.

  • The Ride That Became a Life: How Cycle Touring Found Me in Retirement

    Daily writing prompt
    Share a hobby you’ve picked up recently — what got you into it?

    I never planned to become a cyclist. Five years ago, as the pandemic loosened its grip on the world and I closed the door on a long career, I found myself standing at the edge of an unfamiliar kind of freedom — the kind nobody warns you about. Retirement doesn’t come with a manual. It comes with time, and time, I quickly learned, can feel like both a gift and a void.I bought a bicycle almost on a whim. I told myself it was for exercise, something to keep the body from stiffening into old age. I had no idea it would become the axis around which an entirely new chapter of my life would turn.

    My first real tour was along the coast — salty air, long empty stretches of road lined by coconut palms, the rhythmic hum of tyres on tarmac. There is something about cycling that other forms of travel simply cannot replicate. A car moves too fast to notice the way morning light changes the colour of the sea. Walking is too slow to cover real distance. But a bicycle moves at exactly the speed of attention — fast enough to carry you somewhere new, slow enough to actually see it.

    I began pedalling along India’s coastline in short stretches at first, then longer ones, then entire seasons planned around it. Over five years, the coast became less of a route and more of a companion — familiar in its unpredictability, generous in what it revealed. Fishing villages waking before dawn. Temples, churches, and mosques worn smooth by centuries of monsoons. Strangers who fed me, sheltered me from sudden rain, and asked nothing in return except a story or two in exchange.

    What surprised me most wasn’t the cycling itself . It was everything cycling opened the door to.

    The long, meditative hours on the road did something unexpected to my mind. Thoughts I had buried under decades of deadlines and responsibilities began to surface. I started writing about the rides, first just as notes to remember a particular sunrise or a conversation with a roadside chai vendor. Those notes became blog posts. The blog posts became the scaffolding for something bigger — my first travel memoir, which I’ve now published (The Roads Along the Sea: The Malabar and Coromandel Coasts eBook : Nair, Ayyappan: Amazon.in: Kindle Store https://share.google/mxGgEo3CdZfge7Ttw) or (https://a.co/d/03gDO9uB)

    Cycling also reignited an old, dormant curiosity for history. Every coastal town had a past — a fort, an ancient port, a colonial ruin, a fisherfolk legend — and I found myself reading deep into regional histories just to understand the ground I was rolling over. What began as casual curiosity became genuine study.

    And there was photography — a passion I’d carried quietly for years but rarely had the time or stillness to pursue properly. On a bicycle, you’re forced to slow down and notice: a heron standing motionless in a backwater, light breaking through casuarina trees, the exact blue-grey of the sea before a storm. Nature photography became a natural extension of the ride itself, each day’s journey yielding its own small gallery.

    Strangely enough, the miles also gave birth to fiction. Something about the solitude of long-distance cycling — the rhythm, the isolation, the sheer amount of unstructured thinking time — nudged me toward writing science fiction, of all things. I’m now preparing that manuscript to send out to literary agents and publishers.

    Looking back, it’s hard to believe how much unfolded from a single decision to get on a bicycle. What began as an outward journey along a coastline gradually became an inward one — a slow, unhurried transformation that, five years on, feels almost like a dream I’m still living inside.

    Cycle touring gave my body movement again, but it gave my mind and soul something far more valuable: room to wander, to notice, to create. It let me see humanity through a different lens — unhurried, close to the ground, dependent on the kindness of strangers, attentive to small things that a faster life would have blurred past.If retirement is meant to be an ending, mine turned out to be something else entirely — a beginning disguised as one. And it all started with two wheels and a coastline.

  • Between Tide and Time

    (A Chapter from my Travel Memoir – ‘The Roads Along the Sea: The Malabar and Coromandel Coasts’)

    Travel loosens the grip of certainty. Long hours on the road create spaces where the mind wanders freely. Landscapes gradually turn into reflections. As the ride unfolded along the coasts of Kerala and Tamil Nadu, I began to notice how deeply one idea kept surfacing, in different clothes, again and again: nothing stays as it is. The land itself seemed to tell that story. Rivers shifted their courses, shorelines advanced and retreated, and towns that once flourished faded or vanished altogether. The great flood of 1341 is traditionally believed to have redirected the Periyar, reshaping the Muziris-Kochi coastline and helping create the harbour that would eventually become Kochi. Ports that once welcomed ships from distant lands now lie silent or buried beneath sand or water. Poompuhar, once a thriving Chola port, has partly surrendered itself to the sea. Korkai, the ancient centre of the Pandyan pearl trade, now sits quietly inland as the water slowly withdraws from it. And at Dhanushkodi, the skeletal remains of a once-thriving town still stand exposed to wind and tide, reminders of the cyclone of 1964 that erased an entire settlement in a single night. Alongside these older upheavals sit others with a distinctly human hand behind them. In many places beaches have visibly retreated as erosion reshapes the shore. Harbours, breakwaters, and expanding towns alter coastal currents. Fishermen sometimes speak of the sea advancing where it once held its distance. Rising sea levels, though gradual, no longer feel like distant projections but quiet realities along the edges of villages and fields. Even the air near expanding towns and ports feels heavier than what older generations remember. Even the great kingdoms that shaped these coasts—the Cheras, Cholas, Pandyas, Pallavas, Nayaks, Marathas, and the European colonial powers—rose, flourished, and eventually gave way to others. The land and its record of kingdoms seem to move to the same rhythm. What one generation builds, another reshapes. What appears permanent slowly yields to the quiet pressure of time. The coast, in many ways, keeps its own ledger of this. Nothing remains entirely fixed. Even the lighthouses, which appear so permanent against the horizon, have themselves replaced earlier structures, adapting to newer technologies and maritime needs. The more I thought about it, the more I began to sense that upheaval, unwelcome as it may look in the moment, often carries within it the seeds of possibility. Nature offers a quiet lesson here. Evolution itself depends on small variations in the code of life. Most pass unnoticed, but occasionally one allows life to adapt and move forward. Perhaps the past follows a similar pattern. What looks like disorder at first may also be the beginning of something new. Civilizations turn over, landscapes remake themselves, and societies adjust in ways rarely visible while they are happening. These thoughts unfolded against a world that was itself far from settled. When I began cycling through Kerala, the pandemic had only just begun to loosen its grip on daily life. Roads were opening again, yet traces of those shut-in months lingered everywhere. Shops reopened cautiously. People returned slowly to work. Conversations often drifted toward what had been lost, what had held on, and what had quietly become different. And yet what struck me most along the coast was people’s stubbornness in getting on with things. Fishermen had returned to the sea, their boats pushing out once again with the morning tide. Small roadside tea stalls reopened beside the road, welcoming travellers with the same simple hospitality that had long defined these routes. Life had been interrupted, but not extinguished. There was a quiet determination in the way people resumed their routines, as though the land and the sea themselves offered a reminder that ordinary life tends to outlast whatever disturbs it. As I prepared to begin the Tamil Nadu leg, the world was again shaken by events far beyond these shores. Russia had invaded Ukraine. I heard about it in fragments—a line on someone’s radio, a comment traded over tea at a roadside stall—and the distance between that war and this coast felt, at once, enormous and oddly thin. Villages here went on with their morning routines exactly as before; elsewhere, human beings were once again turning against one another. It struck me, not for the first time, how easily war seems to arrive compared to how hard peace is to keep. It doesn’t need agreement from everyone—only enough ambition, fear, or misunderstanding in the right hands to set something in motion that then runs on its own. Yet the places I rode through had absorbed centuries of exactly this—contest and accommodation, kingdoms rising and falling, coastlines and communities remade again and again. Watching the fishermen go about their morning as if nothing elsewhere mattered, I wondered if what we call peace is really just the pause between one such upheaval and the next. What seems to have changed is only the pace. What once took generations to unfold now seems to happen within a handful of years—less the slow work of tide and season, more the restless push of human hands. And yet something else carries across these cycles: what people choose to remember. Each age leaves its trace on the one that follows. These impressions travel quietly from generation to generation, shaping how communities see themselves and their place in the world. Sometimes they survive as songs, stories, and customs. At other times they endure through ritual and worship. And sometimes they persist simply as habits whose origins no one can any longer explain. Along the coast, these traces sit everywhere, side by side. Old temples stand beside new roads. Churches and mosques built centuries ago still welcome worshippers whose ancestors once stood in the very same spot. Fishing communities carry forward rhythms of work that have outlasted storms, trade, and shifting rulers. Yet amid all this, another pattern kept showing itself with equal clarity: people, wherever I went, were fundamentally decent to a stranger on a bicycle. It showed up in directions offered unasked, in tea pressed into my hands, in the pride fishermen took in their boats and nets, and in the plain curiosity of those who stopped to ask where I’d started and where I meant to end up. By the time the ride began to draw toward its close, another set of thoughts slowly surfaced. Although the pages of this book do not dwell on them, there were many stretches that carried real discomfort. Days when fatigue pressed heavily, when the weather turned unfriendly, when the next night’s shelter remained uncertain until late in the evening. Yet again and again something intervened. A stranger appeared or called at the right moment. A sudden shift in weather made the ride easier than it had any right to be. A small decision, made almost without thinking, later turned out to have steered me clear of real trouble. Any one of these, alone, is easy to dismiss as coincidence. Strung together, mile after mile, they were harder to wave off so easily. Was it merely chance? Or was something quieter at work? I found myself wondering, more than once, whether these small mercies added up to a kind of guidance—perhaps even something close to grace, offered without ever announcing itself. The road gave no answers. Only time to sit with the question. Gradually I noticed that my own relationship with not-knowing had shifted. Earlier in life I had usually met a difficulty by pushing back against it, trying to bend circumstance through sheer effort. This ride suggested something quieter. Effort still mattered. So did preparation. But there were also moments when letting go seemed the wiser move, not the weaker one. Perhaps not everything needs to be fought. Some things simply need to be understood. Rather than resisting what looks inevitable, perhaps the better task is to recognize it—maybe even to work with it. The rivers I crossed don’t fight their own bends. The shore doesn’t resist its own erosion and rebuilding. A forest grows, falls, and grows again without complaint. Life, at every scale, moves forward by yielding as much as by pushing. Perhaps a life is not so different. What unsettles us is not always only loss. Sometimes it is the beginning of something else. By the time the final kilometres passed beneath my wheels, these thoughts had settled quietly into me. I hadn’t found answers, nor uncovered any secret buried in the landscapes I’d crossed. But something had shifted. I no longer felt the same urge to brace against every uncertainty. Instead, I began to sense that a life goes best when effort and acceptance move together—working diligently at what is in front of you, while staying open to whatever current is actually carrying you. Throughout the ride, lighthouses had marked my path along the coast. They stood quietly above rocks and sand, guiding ships through waters that never stopped moving. Each one offered a fixed point in a world otherwise being constantly rewritten by wind, tide, and time. Perhaps a life needs something similar. Not a tight grip on every turn of the road, but a steady inner light—something that lets us keep moving even when the horizon itself won’t hold still. And perhaps a kind of peace arrives when we stop treating the ride itself, with all its detours and surprises, as something to be resisted. Like the tides along the coast, it simply unfolds.

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  • Sample Chapter from – The Roads Along the Sea: The Malabar and Coromandel Coasts

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    Chapter 9: Between Tide and Time

    Travel loosens the grip of certainty. Long hours on the road create spaces where the mind wanders freely. Landscapes gradually turn into reflections. As the ride unfolded along the coasts of Kerala and Tamil Nadu, I began to notice how deeply one idea kept surfacing, in different clothes, again and again: nothing stays as it is. The land itself seemed to tell that story. Rivers shifted their courses, shorelines advanced and retreated, and towns that once flourished faded or vanished altogether. The great flood of 1341 is traditionally believed to have redirected the Periyar, reshaping the Muziris-Kochi coastline and helping create the harbour that would eventually become Kochi. Ports that once welcomed ships from distant lands now lie silent or buried beneath sand or water. Poompuhar, once a thriving Chola port, has partly surrendered itself to the sea. Korkai, the ancient centre of the Pandyan pearl trade, now sits quietly inland as the water slowly withdraws from it. And at Dhanushkodi, the skeletal remains of a once-thriving town still stand exposed to wind and tide, reminders of the cyclone of 1964 that erased an entire settlement in a single night. Alongside these older upheavals sit others with a distinctly human hand behind them. In many places, beaches have visibly retreated as erosion reshapes the shore. Harbours, breakwaters, and expanding towns alter coastal currents. Fishermen sometimes speak of the sea advancing where it once held its distance. Rising sea levels, though gradual, no longer feel like distant projections but quiet realities along the edges of villages and fields. Even the air near expanding towns and ports feels heavier than what older generations remember. Even the great kingdoms that shaped these coasts—the Cheras, Cholas, Pandyas, Pallavas, Nayaks, Marathas, and the European colonial powers—rose, flourished, and eventually gave way to others. The land and its record of kingdoms seem to move to the same rhythm. What one generation builds, another reshapes. What appears permanent slowly yields to the quiet pressure of time. The coast, in many ways, keeps its own ledger of this. Nothing remains entirely fixed. Even the lighthouses, which appear so permanent against the horizon, have themselves replaced earlier structures, adapting to newer technologies and maritime needs. The more I thought about it, the more I began to sense that upheaval, unwelcome as it may look in the moment, often carries within it the seeds of possibility. Nature offers a quiet lesson here. Evolution itself depends on small variations in the code of life. Most pass unnoticed, but occasionally one allows life to adapt and move forward. Perhaps the past follows a similar pattern. What looks like disorder at first may also be the beginning of something new. Civilisations turn over, landscapes remake themselves, and societies adjust in ways rarely visible while they are happening. These thoughts unfolded against a world that was itself far from settled. When I began cycling through Kerala, the pandemic had only just begun to loosen its grip on daily life. Roads were opening again, yet traces of those shut-in months lingered everywhere. Shops reopened cautiously. People returned slowly to work. Conversations often drifted toward what had been lost, what had held on, and what had quietly become different. And yet what struck me most along the coast was people’s stubbornness in getting on with things. Fishermen had returned to the sea, their boats pushing out once again with the morning tide. Small roadside tea stalls reopened beside the road, welcoming travellers with the same simple hospitality that had long defined these routes. Life had been interrupted, but not extinguished. There was a quiet determination in the way people resumed their routines, as though the land and the sea themselves offered a reminder that ordinary life tends to outlast whatever disturbs it. As I prepared to begin the Tamil Nadu leg, the world was again shaken by events far beyond these shores. Russia had invaded Ukraine. I heard about it in fragments—a line on someone’s radio, a comment traded over tea at a roadside stall—and the distance between that war and this coast felt, at once, enormous and oddly thin. Villages here went on with their morning routines exactly as before; elsewhere, human beings were once again turning against one another. It struck me, not for the first time, how easily war seems to arrive compared to how hard peace is to keep. It doesn’t need agreement from everyone—only enough ambition, fear, or misunderstanding in the right hands to set something in motion that then runs on its own. Yet the places I rode through had absorbed centuries of exactly this—contest and accommodation, kingdoms rising and falling, coastlines and communities remade again and again. Watching the fishermen go about their morning as if nothing elsewhere mattered, I wondered if what we call peace is really just the pause between one such upheaval and the next. What seems to have changed is only the pace. What once took generations to unfold now seems to happen within a handful of years—less the slow work of tide and season, more the restless push of human hands. And yet something else carries across these cycles: what people choose to remember. Each age leaves its trace on the one that follows. These impressions travel quietly from generation to generation, shaping how communities see themselves and their place in the world. Sometimes they survive as songs, stories, and customs. At other times they endure through ritual and worship. And sometimes they persist simply as habits whose origins no one can any longer explain. Along the coast, these traces sit everywhere, side by side. Old temples stand beside new roads. Churches and mosques built centuries ago still welcome worshippers whose ancestors once stood in the very same spot. Fishing communities carry forward rhythms of work that have outlasted storms, trade, and shifting rulers. Yet amid all this, another pattern kept showing itself with equal clarity: people, wherever I went, were fundamentally decent to a stranger on a bicycle. It showed up in directions offered unasked, in tea pressed into my hands, in the pride fishermen took in their boats and nets, and in the plain curiosity of those who stopped to ask where I’d started and where I meant to end up. By the time the ride began to draw toward its close, another set of thoughts slowly surfaced. Although the pages of this book do not dwell on them, there were many stretches that carried real discomfort. Days when fatigue pressed heavily, when the weather turned unfriendly, when the next night’s shelter remained uncertain until late in the evening. Yet again and again something intervened. A stranger appeared or called at the right moment. A sudden shift in weather made the ride easier than it had any right to be. A small decision, made almost without thinking, later turned out to have steered me clear of real trouble. Any one of these, alone, is easy to dismiss as coincidence. Strung together, mile after mile, they were harder to wave off so easily. Was it merely chance? Or was something quieter at work? I found myself wondering, more than once, whether these small mercies added up to a kind of guidance—perhaps even something close to grace, offered without ever announcing itself. The road gave no answers. Only time to sit with the question. Gradually I noticed that my own relationship with not-knowing had shifted. Earlier in life I had usually met a difficulty by pushing back against it, trying to bend circumstance through sheer effort. This ride suggested something quieter. Effort still mattered. So did preparation. But there were also moments when letting go seemed the wiser move, not the weaker one. Perhaps not everything needs to be fought. Some things simply need to be understood. Rather than resisting what looks inevitable, perhaps the better task is to recognize it—maybe even to work with it. The rivers I crossed don’t fight their own bends. The shore doesn’t resist its own erosion and rebuilding. A forest grows, falls, and grows again without complaint. Life, at every scale, moves forward by yielding as much as by pushing. Perhaps a life is not so different. What unsettles us is not always only loss. Sometimes it is the beginning of something else. By the time the final kilometres passed beneath my wheels, these thoughts had settled quietly into me. I hadn’t found answers, nor uncovered any secret buried in the landscapes I’d crossed. But something had shifted. I no longer felt the same urge to brace against every uncertainty. Instead, I began to sense that a life goes best when effort and acceptance move together—working diligently at what is in front of you, while staying open to whatever current is actually carrying you. Throughout the ride, lighthouses had marked my path along the coast. They stood quietly above rocks and sand, guiding ships through waters that never stopped moving. Each one offered a fixed point in a world otherwise being constantly rewritten by wind, tide, and time. Perhaps a life needs something similar. Not a tight grip on every turn of the road, but a steady inner light—something that lets us keep moving even when the horizon itself won’t hold still. And perhaps a kind of peace arrives when we stop treating the ride itself, with all its detours and surprises, as something to be resisted. Like the tides along the coast, it simply unfolds.